my golden dream

GOAL OF MY DREAMS

Dream?...yeah i think a lot of people have dream in their life which will be reached. It isnt so far with my self. My goal dream when i have married in future are too much. This my preparation...why today i looking for a lot of knowledge about religion and science. “Doing everithing need knowledge”...yeah...this is one sentences which always often had said by my teacher. Since i was small as a child...yeah exactly when i was in 2 graduate of SD. I had though about what happen my future to me...and waht have to be prepared by my self to get my ambition.

Yeah...my goal dream is i become bbg (brainy, beauty girl)...yeah solekhah women who get rhido of Allah SWT. Brainy but always keep stay humble and friendly. Since i ws small, i liked singing, writing, speech, drawing, etc. I have studied about relige and science,  but i am still feel not satistied. I still think that i am still stupid so i have to add alot of knowledge. I often take my attention to look at woman life in their family. Yeah...of course as my approaching..i know a lot of information about woman...how to be patient woman, how to be strong woman althogh some problem come in and how to solve it as a good solving.

Since i was small, i lifed in misery life...yeah in poverty stricken whereas my family didnot have a home. Those condiotion which brough me to be spirit. I have best spirit, never give up, never hopeless although i had found saveral failure (tens of failure). It causes i always remember my family condition...i want to bring them in good condition BIIDZNILLAH...i want make them happy with my successfull in future. About my hobbies...sometimes i find out about human life under the bridge, livelihood in the market, and about another social life. I love to the road children, full orphan, orphan, and poor human. They need attention from us. I ever feel like that...and in my mind i want to help them as i can, firstly of course i want to help my family life to be better IN SYAALLAH, and than followed by them.

Dear readers who have good insting inside your heart. Dont you know about orphan. According to me full orphans are strong child...Why not?...they life without their family... they did not have mother and father. But they have strong heart to face their life. Sometimes...they are so happy everywhere, although they didnot have parent. Aren’t shy of us?...we have father, we have mather but sometimes we have made our parent heart so sad cause our behaviour. Here i want to tell you...”allah wrath is equal with parent wrath”. Dont make them so sad and angry cause of our false way. Dont you know?...we have to think about them... our parent spend a lot of time just for thinkabout us...its mean that they love us. So my goal dream is i want to bring my parent in happily lifvelihood BIIDNILLAH. Why i always say BIIDZNILLAH because something ehich is happen in this world only happen if Allah has permitted....:)

My golden dream when i have married are:

1.    I want be solekhah wife, doing everything which can make my husband feel so happy. But something which i have done has to obey of Allah said in holy qur’an and hadist.

2.    I want be good wife, cook a food for my family.

3.    I want to try my children about the meaning of life. I try them how to love in poor human, orphan, etc.

4.    I’ll try my children about the important of time. How to manage time as good as best way to do. What is time to ngaji, what is time to sholat, what is time to study, what is time to explore up their talent and how to develop it so good, what is time to play just for take a rest as refreshing.

5.    I want try them about how to show up their talent as tilawah, speech, writing phoem, writing short story, write paper and dig ther talent to show up.

6.    I will read a short story before they have slept. Short story about Rosulullah, Ummahatul mu’minin, cendekiawan moslem of the world, scientist struggle to get nobel prize, student of indonesia who get firts prize in the international competition.

7.    I’ll try them about akhlaqul karimah..how to love the younger and how to respect the older.

8.    I’ll love my family, my husband too musch...yeah i like romanticism life as sayyidah aisyah when to romp with rosulullah.

I’ll try a lot of knowledge and how to applicate it as islam has thought me. I’ll try my family with slow and silent why without cruel behaviour but always keep wise. So many thing which have to be reached by my self..IN SYAALLAH. May Allah gives me an easyness to do all of my activities. May Allah gives me long age and health so i can effort as ikhtiar to realize my dream...IN SYAALLAH. To prepare of my life in future, i just IKHTIAR as well as i can...allah who gives me the result. May allah always bless me...gives me hidayah and Rahmad. Only with Allah cause i ask. Ya Allah...keep me all the way, keep me along my singgle day. Ya Allah...istajib du’a ana.

  

MY LOVELY IDOLA

About My Self   

Since I was a child,  exactly at elementary school i had a different habit with my friends. I don’t know, but i think it comes from my deep heart and my small insticnct.

When my friends loved and amazed in an actrress or an actor, it is different with me. Since i got 2 graduate in elementary school, i taken my love to my idol. My idols were K.H Memoen Zubair, Kiahi Ushtuhri (Young ustads who is clever and handsome), Gus-Gus, And Another ustads whose i could not mention it one by one. Beside that i liked too much with clever students who have gone in international competition as a champion and someone who have given good name of Indonesia in national competition as a champion too.

I dont know, since i was small, i had amazed at intelligent students and ulama’.

Oh my god...i dont know...this feeling flow up in my soul. Too amaze at them till now, i want be like my idol. They are so amazing...yeah...my dream is become brainy girls in academic, competition, and religius. Am i can?...yeah...i dont know, jus Allah who knows it, Wallahu a’lam. I just try to hard effort as i can do.

This is my reason why since i was small i had taken amaze to them:

1. When i love religious human as kiahi...may i will get a lot of suggestion which is good for my life ezactly akhirot life, how to improve my selt to be better. My soul needs something which can make it grow up as heart needs.
2. When i love clever human because i hope in syaallah i can be like them...yeah clever human. Knowledge is important. By knowledge we can effort to struggle of Allah religion (islam). And cause knowledge we can bring it in progress.

Who are them?...someonne who had become my idola since i had known them, although it is from newspaper, pengajian, my father story, TV, know by my friend..etc. Their name are:

1. Kiahi Maemoen Zubair. He is Ustads in PP AL-Mus, Sarang-Rembang. He is my father’s kiahi when he was in pesantren. He is clever in islam religion, kind, friendly, and patient man.
2. Kiahi Ustuhri is kiahi in Sarang-Rembang too. He comes from village. He was poor student in pesantren but veri clever and genious. He has  very handsome face, kind, friendly, and amazing. He had married with neng (his Kiahi doughter).
3. Kiahi Asrori. He is from east java. I usually heard his ceramah since i was in elementary school. I like him. Why...he is polite, know me about feeling knowled, tauhid, etc...and silent man (kalem).
4. Kiahi YM. I amaze at him cauhe his ceramah try me about tauhid.
5. All of kiahi who are my adole which i can’t mention it one by one.
6. I amaze in Mr Hartadinata. Indonesian people who is mawapres in US. He is entelligent, humble, and too amazing accordig to me. His age as my age but he had taken 2 majors in US...Yeah doctors medic and accountancy. Now, he had graduated from S1 and his IPK is cumlaude. Wow...what amazing of God who has created him. And what amazing of him.
7. I amaze in Muhammad Yasya’ Bahrul Ulum. He is student in ITS. One year younger than me. He has taken electrical engineering majors. Beside he is first prize of International Mathemathics Competition (IMC) 2014, he is also a santri. Subhanallah...what amazing of him. Amaze him too much.
8. I amaze in ABF. Hehe...his name secret...cause some of my friends know him. He is intellegent and international competition. I was near with him since i got 2 semester. Beside he is handsome, kind to me, friendly, sometimes he always help to me. We are bestfriend.
9. Sofihara Alhazmi. He is student of UPI who get bronze medal in International Mathemathics Competition (IMC) 2014.
10. Muhammad Baharun Musadad...Hafidz 30 jus who are second prize in internasional competition in sudan. Wow...subhanallah...amazing.
11. Another wh are the champion but i can’t mention it one by one.

Barokallah...i am too happy know it. May i can follow your way. Biidznillah may i can be as BBG (brainy and beuty girl)...hehe. Wallahu a’lam. May Allah gives all of my dream. Istajib Du’a ana Ya Allah.

Barokallah for all of my idola. May Allah permit me near with you, get more knowledge with you, meet with you directly, and i can follow your step. Biidznillah.

Funny Experience

Funny Story of Me But True

Yeah...this is about me. This storys in syaallah will always are remembered in my mind along my life. Yups...this is funny story of me:

1.      One day on July 2014, i got lunch with my friend. On those condition, i had recovered from my sickness, yeah i suffered allergy ang had gotten an accident. Yeah of course, i brought my drug from doctor everywhere because when i had to prepare everytime when it was the time to drink it. Yeah when i and my friend ate bakso. My friend always looked at me and laughed at me. Of course it made me so confuse, i thought it was not funny why he laughed at me. And some people beside me also laughed at me. Oh My God...actually they laughed at me cause i poured my drug into BAKSO. And they though it was so funny. Huh...is it funny??...i think not. Someone told at me that it was so funny cause before they never looked someone ate bakso with drug as mix food. In my mind not like that: “I think that i pour my drug into bakso. So it is not bitter and ebough sweet. I never think that my behaviour will be laughed by the other”. Not only that people arround me also laughed me cause i uused “SEDOTAN” but capsize. Yeah...really” make me so shame. But this event always become my funny experience along my life.

2.      When i get presentation my paper i bring bucket. And alot of people look at me and laugh at me. What’s wrong?. I dont know. I think its not funny. Why people arround me laugh at me. I hear some of them say: “...beuty-beuty...why bring bucket when presentation, why dont bring kleenex, it’s more beautiful to see?. I dont think about it. Ya Allah...”mana ada ya orang presentasi bawanya ember...haduw. In my mind if i bring bucket, it will help me when i must applicate to use my soap”.

Another story i cant write here, maybe next time in syaallah. Whatever which you want dont be shy if its good according to religion (halal and toyyib). If you want know more about me...just be my best friend...:)

“Shy cause doing maksiyat is good cause shy is part of FAITHFUL...and remember dont be shy when do everything is good. You have to self confidence cause islam try us to be optimist”...:)

Funny Story of Me But True

Yeah...this is about me. This storys in syaallah will always are remembered in my mind along my life. Yups...this is funny story of me:

1.      One day on July 2014, i got lunch with my friend. On those condition, i had recovered from my sickness, yeah i suffered allergy ang had gotten an accident. Yeah of course, i brought my drug from doctor everywhere because when i had to prepare everytime when it was the time to drink it. Yeah when i and my friend ate bakso. My friend always looked at me and laughed at me. Of course it made me so confuse, i thought it was not funny why he laughed at me. And some people beside me also laughed at me. Oh My God...actually they laughed at me cause i poured my drug into BAKSO. And they though it was so funny. Huh...is it funny??...i think not. Someone told at me that it was so funny cause before they never looked someone ate bakso with drug as mix food. In my mind not like that: “I think that i pour my drug into bakso. So it is not bitter and ebough sweet. I never think that my behaviour will be laughed by the other”. Not only that people arround me also laughed me cause i uused “SEDOTAN” but capsize. Yeah...really” make me so shame. But this event always become my funny experience along my life.

2.      When i get presentation my paper i bring bucket. And alot of people look at me and laugh at me. What’s wrong?. I dont know. I think its not funny. Why people arround me laugh at me. I hear some of them say: “...beuty-beuty...why bring bucket when presentation, why dont bring kleenex, it’s more beautiful to see?. I dont think about it. Ya Allah...”mana ada ya orang presentasi bawanya ember...haduw. In my mind if i bring bucket, it will help me when i must applicate to use my soap”.

Another story i cant write here, maybe next time in syaallah. Whatever which you want dont be shy if its good according to religion (halal and toyyib). If you want know more about me...just be my best friend...:)

“Shy cause doing maksiyat is good cause shy is part of FAITHFUL...and remember dont be shy when do everything is good. You have to self confidence cause islam try us to be optimist”...:)

Funny Story of Me

THE RELEASE BEHIND THE SADNESS

Monday, 21 July 2014  

            Yeah...this is story about me. Latest semester (Four semester) i often get successive trials. Yeah this is sometimes make me so sad too long time. My successive trials given by God are my GPA on third semester is decresed than last semester, i get an accident twice in this semester (on april and july...yeah exactly its at the time when UTS (Ujian Tengah Semester) and UAS (Ujian Akhir Semester), not only that...i am also lied from someone for about Rp 1.200.000,00 cause i am not focus (nglamun), than someone have lied me with his promise and the effect i have to responsible with someone false for about Rp2.200.000,00, my  charger laptop and my glass wear when i was sujud (solat), someone have stolen my glass wear and my charger, than my laptop was error.

            Yeah those trials really-really make me so stress. I try to accep it sincerely and try to look so happy in front of myfriend but when i am alone in my room of boarding house i cant hide my sadness...my tears fall down on my face. Ihen i remember it...i always try to be patient and prevent my wrath to show up. Yeah...as a realease i read a lot of solawat and ngaji, than a take a sleep to get better condition. My minsed “Something which is my own actually not my own but Allah own which is deposited to me for several times...so it will return to Allah again”...those minsed which make me so calm when face anything although sometimes i am crying since that time. I always try to not angry everywere and everytime although some trials come to me and several fitnah come in my life. I know this is God examination, God want to know how much of my patience...just try to be patient and keep calm.

            Oh yeah...this is my behaviour when i am bad mood or sad...some of my close friend say to me “You are so different with the other, normally when someone feel so bad mood, they will not take a photos while you...you take a lot of photos when you are bad mood...too funny too see, your style so funny as a child...it amuses me you know. I like you when release something, a lot of people when they get weigh trials, they get emotion and angry or NGAMUK-NGAMUK/ MUNI-MUNI (saying bad words)...if you are so different...really so unique”. I just keep silent anyway than smile, and say “its not lucky to me when my impingement is angry...angry just take a lot of energy which is unimportant, preverable i read solawat and take a lot of photos...take a lot of photos can make me feel so better and enjoy...i think everyone have their different impingement, and its me..my realease to forget anything is by taking a lot of photos...angry or ngamuk or muni-muni or nyosot only will increase sin of us...and i think it’s unimportant and maksiyat, so i have to avoid it”.

            Okay this is some of my photos when i am bad mood, just for enjoying and making my heart feel so better..:)..: