THE RELEASE BEHIND THE
SADNESS
Monday, 21 July 2014
Yeah...this is story about me.
Latest semester (Four semester) i often get successive trials. Yeah this is
sometimes make me so sad too long time. My successive trials given by God are
my GPA on third semester is decresed than last semester, i get an accident
twice in this semester (on april and july...yeah exactly its at the time when
UTS (Ujian Tengah Semester) and UAS (Ujian Akhir Semester), not only that...i
am also lied from someone for about Rp 1.200.000,00 cause i am not focus
(nglamun), than someone have lied me with his promise and the effect i have to responsible
with someone false for about Rp2.200.000,00, my
charger laptop and my glass wear when i was sujud (solat), someone have
stolen my glass wear and my charger, than my laptop was error.
Yeah those trials really-really make
me so stress. I try to accep it sincerely and try to look so happy in front of
myfriend but when i am alone in my room of boarding house i cant hide my
sadness...my tears fall down on my face. Ihen i remember it...i always try to
be patient and prevent my wrath to show up. Yeah...as a realease i read a lot
of solawat and ngaji, than a take a sleep to get better condition. My minsed “Something
which is my own actually not my own but Allah own which is deposited to me for
several times...so it will return to Allah again”...those minsed which make me
so calm when face anything although sometimes i am crying since that time. I
always try to not angry everywere and everytime although some trials come to me
and several fitnah come in my life. I know this is God examination, God want to
know how much of my patience...just try to be patient and keep calm.
Oh yeah...this is my behaviour when
i am bad mood or sad...some of my close friend say to me “You are so different
with the other, normally when someone feel so bad mood, they will not take a
photos while you...you take a lot of photos when you are bad mood...too funny
too see, your style so funny as a child...it amuses me you know. I like you
when release something, a lot of people when they get weigh trials, they get
emotion and angry or NGAMUK-NGAMUK/ MUNI-MUNI (saying bad words)...if you are
so different...really so unique”. I just keep silent anyway than smile, and say
“its not lucky to me when my impingement is angry...angry just take a lot of
energy which is unimportant, preverable i read solawat and take a lot of
photos...take a lot of photos can make me feel so better and enjoy...i think
everyone have their different impingement, and its me..my realease to forget
anything is by taking a lot of photos...angry or ngamuk or muni-muni or nyosot
only will increase sin of us...and i think it’s unimportant and maksiyat, so i
have to avoid it”.
Okay this is some of my photos when
i am bad mood, just for enjoying and making my heart feel so better..:)..:
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